I want to begin with the “V” word, because it encompasses everything that I’m feeling right now, and it’s also a driving force behind my motivation to begin writing. The “V” word is vulnerability, and it has been in the forefront of my mind these past few weeks, thanks to a thought-provoking book written by Brené Brown called “Daring Greatly.” In the book, Brown teaches that “Vulnerability is the core of all emotions and feelings. To feel is to be vulnerable.” It’s something we can all relate to, as it’s impossible to avoid in life. Much to the dismay of the escape artist in my head, I am making a personal attempt to view this cringe-inducing word as a positive, and to dive in headfirst.
In the world that I see, vulnerability is typically associated with thoughts of negative emotions, such as fear, rejection, and disappointment. But when looking at it from a glass-half-full of wine perspective, it’s undeniable that vulnerability is also engrained in the emotions we most seek in life. To again quote Brown, “Vulnerability is the birthplace of love, belonging, joy, courage, empathy and creativity. If we want greater clarity in our purpose or deeper and more meaningful spiritual lives, vulnerability is the path.”
Now how does this all relate to me? I have long brushed off the recurring desire to begin writing, hugely due to the vulnerability tied to publishing my thoughts on the internet (because once it’s out there, it never truly goes away, right?). Another drawback was thinking about how absurd it would be for anyone to care about what I had to say on this little webpage. I’m still battling the fear of being judged and criticized by anyone reading these words, including acquaintances and peers, moreso than just strangers. However, I’ve decided I need to let loose the reigns and get outside my comfort zone in order to feel MORE and explore MORE. With the encouragement of a loving girlfriend and the need for a creative outlet, I decided to start this blog.
This is part of a greater self-improvement journey that I’ve prescribed to myself for 2015, which will have a continual presence throughout these posts. I promise to provide much more exciting content than the personal feelings I’ve shared here today. However, in my goal to be open and honest in my words, this felt like the best way to begin. As I unravel more of the topics I plan to discuss, I will continue learning and sharing, while keeping the words of a wise Dr. Seuss in my head:
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”